Soooo world... As I begin to write this blog, it is 1:15am. My day was no different from any other (except I didn't go to class) but I usually go to class, come home and take a nap, then get up and finish out my day. Today was somewhat busy but nothn out of the ordinary. Took my usual naps (yes... NAPS! I take more than one a day.) But for some reason I can't go back to sleep. Thought it was cuz I couldn't go back to sleep cuz of my naps but I think its a different reason...
I can't get "him" off my mind. For the sake of this note, we will call him X. I had the pleasure of meeting X through a mutual friend. They came to my job. I peeped him. He peeped me and that was how our "love" story began lol... Anyhoo, me and X just been super cool ever since then. It seems as if he is everything I want in a man. He is soooo in love wit God that it makes me wanna step my game up. X is very involved with his church. He is a family man. Loves his family tooooo death! No kids! I repeat... NO KIDS! Don't get me wrong, Daddies need love too but I just haven't had any luck wit that. Anyway... X just got a lot goin for him and I love his passion and drive. He got goals!
So, X and I chill on a regular basis. We eat dinner together, we cook breakfast for each other (get ya mind right. I go over in the mornin after class and I cook bacon and eggs. He cooks pancakes), just good ol friends. But I want more than that. I'm ok with our relationship now but I jus want more :p he knows I like him and I THINK he has feelings for me but I'm scared to REEEEAAALLLALLYYYY put myself out there cuz I don't do well wit rejection so I think that's y I just try to keep it just as "friends" btwn us. But yeah... I'm crushin hard and don't know what to do!!!! And theeeennnnnnn...
I met this new fella. He will be called Z. He is sooooo sweet and is a momma's boy to the core. Goes to church and plays football like X (both X and Z are good fb players). I'm kinda feelin him too. We also cook for each other (well... Moreso him than me lol) and he knows that's the way to my heart! A good ol homecooked meal! Z is just an all around cool dude and I could see persuing somethn wit him as well but I'm tooorrrnnnnn!
Help me out world...
Imma try to go to sleep now.
Peace & Blessings to ya...
GNite.
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