heeeeeeeyyyyy ppl!

Weeeelll.... It has been a while! I hope this msg finds ya in good health! A lot has happened in the last month or so. Where shall I start??

Me and the ex have finally called it quits. Like fa real... I had been with him on and off for 2 years and looking at it now, it wasn't a very healthy situation to be in. I had already started to distance myself from him and had really moved on wit my life, but he msgd me the other day and we actually made it "official". I was somewhat sad for a few reasons. In the msg, he said that he was going overseas to work as a civilian. And then he went on to say that I needed to find someone who will do me the way he did but that he has tried to find someone like me but that didn't work out. Well.... Let me say this b4 I vent on my irritation with him. It was bittersweet because its like, you don't believe something until you see it so seeing it in ink (us breaking up) kinda sealed the deal. Then I was sad, cuz although we had been thru a lot, I was sad he was going overseas cuz I would be devistated if anything were to happen to him. Now.... As far as me findin someone that would "do me like him"... NEVER! Although he and I have had a lot of good times, the BAD outweighed the good. So if I had to find someone like him, I would take some of his qualities and group em with what I'm lookin for in a new guy cuz if I began to explain to the world just exactly what I have been through, I think yall would stone me to death lol... And as far as finding someone like me?! Ummm... No! I am me and there is NONE like me! Anyhoo... With all that being said, I wish him the best of luck in all his endevours....

Ok.... So... I got rid of one of my "friends". He further confirmed for me whhyyyyy I don't date guys more than a year younger than me. I guess he was wantin to jump into a relationship the week after meeting me but I don't do that. I like to get to really know ppl b4 I just jump into a relationship with them, especially after this last relationship. Then this person just started to become too overbearing and needy. A big NO NO in my book. So I will admit, I just became a lil distant because I just don't do the whole "I gotta be around u 24/7" thing... So I guess he got the hint. But the funny part about it is that he all of a sudden is now in a relationship wit someone. My only irritation is that I feel like he was talkn to the girl the whole time we was chillin. I could care less but don't talk BS about "oh... You the girl I think imma marry" and "I'm addicted to your kisses" and so on... And then you all of a sudden cut yo feelins off. My only request is that u just be upfront. He didn't lie to me, but he just held back some important info... With all that said, I do not deal wit pplz children! Best of luck to him. Moving on...

Now, just to make a long story short, I have become closer to one of my male friends. I think we both are crushing on each other but neither of us will admitt it so its just gonna be the big pink elephant in the room till one of us points it out lol. I came to this realization when I went to his house while I was in his neighborhood. It was after midnight so he thought I was caking and he seemed to have got a lil jealous (I was at a party and NOT caking.) so now he has a lil attitude wit me which I think is actually kinda cute :p anywhoo... Let's see where this goes!

Nooowwww.... On to the last guy. He and I been cool and been chillin for a while but lately it seems like we have been gettn closer as well... We both attend the same school and church. We r very involved in the different organizations at the church. We both love to eat, laugh, watch movies, all that stuff. Idk where this one is gonna go either lol... I'm single so I'm just weighing my options and we will see where all this goes!

Yaaaaay! I feel better now that I got to vent. So...

I have taken on the responsibility of starting a choir at my church as well as helping out with the worship team. Pray for me.... I have a lot of knowledge to share and I hope it is received with open arms and ears!

And.....

MY BIRTHDAY IS SUUUNNNDDDAAAYYYYY! I can't wait. Don't have any clue what imma do. All I know is that the mall and Burlington Coat Factory is calling my name and I shall answer! Lol

That's it!

Peace and Blessings :p