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Good mornin world! I hope this note finds you in good health. I just have to say that this week has been filled with the good and bad. First let me say congrats to PRESIDENT Barak Obama. We dit it! I am so proud that I was alive to be able to witness and take part of such a historic event! Wheeeew.... Anywhoo... God is a trip! (In a good way). I have been strugglin wit Mr X lately. On monday, a group of ppl from our chuch had a lil bible study. He was there with HER and I already knew my night was going to be ruined. I couldn't pay attn and take in what was bein taught so I just said screw it. So bible study was over and by this time I was just cryin cuz I couldn't stand seein them together. So after prayer (while I'm still crying) I just left. My spiritual sis came after me and wouldn't leave till I talked to her. She said some very powerful things and just really spoke to my heart and over my life. Then she told me I just need to talk to him and not have such a hard heart! Wheeew.... I really didn't want to do that cuz Mr X just really makes my heart melt and my pride would not let me do it. Soooo.... He walked out the house and started walking towards me. My first reaction was to just get in my car and leave but neither he nor my sis would let me leave :( all I can say is that she spoke that convo into existence. The good Lord knew what He was doin. He has really been holding me accountable and making me face my "issues" head on.... So me and Mr X had a long talk and really got to the core of what both he and I felt. I have to say that once you let go of your pride, you will realize that things may not be as bad as you think they r. I stilllll have my doubts but I just have to put it in God's hands cuz he knows my heart's true desire. That's all folks! Just needed to vent. Ttyl8r

Peace and Blessings to ya!